I don’t know how people deal with the stress over everyday life. Are you supposed to get used to it at some point? I am so tired of fighting everyone. Fighting for just wanting to live a happy semi carefree life. Why is this so hard for me to attain? I must be doing something wrong. I must be making the wrong choices. Am I too easily overwhelmed? Am I just a whiny little bitch? Who’s to say? I’m going to see a lawyer tomorrow about Madelyn’s dad. I want him to have less visitation. Currently he’s really only utilizing the long breaks, summer break, winter break, and sometimes fall or spring breaks, but I want those gone. He’s going to fuck up Madelyn, he’s already doing it. I used to be his only target, but she’s becoming more like me, she’s seeing him for who he really is, and now she’s becoming a target. I can’t let him do to her what he’s been doing to me. And it would be different for her, this is her dad. To me, he’s just an asshole I have to put up with for another 5 years. To her, she’s tied to him for life whether she talks to him or not.
Clear as Crystal 