Ok so I felt sorry for myself for a few days, sue me. Having some mental talks with myself today and I’m feeling a little better. Patrick being in a better financial state than me after we break up really fucking sucks, but it is not his fault, it is my fault because of the decisions I made. I am angry, but I am not angry at him. And like I always say to him, we can’t go back, we can only go forward. And in this case, I really need to practice what I preach. In a lot of ways. I can’t fix the past, I can learn from it. The best that I can do is to make sure that this never happens to me again. That I’m not worse off after a relationship because I didn’t stick to my guns or listen to my gut. I need to protect myself financially. I need to fucking finish college and become a nurse, it’s the right thing, and it’s what I should be doing. Not only would I be better off financially, but I’d never be stuck in a job I hated again, because there’s so many different kinds of nurses. And they are always hiring somewhere.
Clear as Crystal 